Smoking weed + Paranoia aka "the darkies"
Does anyone here smoke weed and then get intrusive thoughts/unneasy feelings?
Strange beliefs/delusions you have or had?
Exactly what the title says. Feel free to elaborate on what they might signify as well. I view weird beliefs/delusions similarly to dreams. They are affected by current stress levels, past experiences, and various other things, so we can see into our subconscious and deeper selves by examining what we believe in. Some of these analyses may be a bit reaching, but as long as I can gain some insight into who I am, what does it matter? I'll start.
lain's dream diary
each post shares a dream (or two :) )
how to operate your brain
A while ago I found this research paper here titled "How to operate your brain", but I can't find it anymore. Does anyone still have it?
Alice and Tulpamancy
I see tulpamancy mentioned semi-regularly so I have to ask, Is Alice a tulpamancer? If so what's you're story? If not, I am, I started three years ago and have two tulpas and regularly let them possess my body, AMA.
Altered States Of Consciousness
Hi. I just wanted to spark a discussion. If anyone has the psychological field as background, would you mind answering me in something. Could we map the altered states of consciousness in clusters and interconnected functions that are supported by physiological evidence through brain scans etc. A similar way of how we analyse normative states of consciousness through bio-cognitive theories. In the picture i have attached, i was talking to a friend about it and I kinda explained to them my thought bubble. What i want you to do is to offer your opinion and to mention to me if you had experiences of Possession, and how important it is for you to have agency (to be in charge of your own actions). That is all.
Toxoplasmosis Gondii
Have we finally found it Lainons?? Is this what has been hurting us?
psychdelics and humans
hey arisu,
Help Me.
I am stuck. Fading in and out of the self.
A goddess wants me to make a new religion
Has anyone ever heard god asking you to do stuff?
special k
hi arisu,
meditation
seemed to be popular on /zzz/, so let's bring it back.
Combining antidepressants
So I'm currently on paroxetine for my major depressive disorder and while it works it only does barely, is like the windows XP of antidepressants but considering that in my case sertraline was like windows ME I say its an improvement.
/psygeo/ - Psychogeography General
What is Psychogeography?
Chaos Magick General
Chaos Magick General
darknet markets
Where are the kids buying drugs these days, Alice?
McDonalidazation of Pain
I recently came across the work of Bonnie Burstow.
Thanatophobia
I have really bad thanatophobia or death anxiety it keeps me up at night and I have panic attacks all throughout the day fearing that I could die it's not like a normal fear of death it's basically an obsession at this point I can't stop thinking about the fact that I could die soon. Anyone else experienced this?
Trusting therapist
Have you ever consulted a psychotherapist, Alice?
Intuition studies
What is intuition? Where can I read on it? How can I train intuition?
Occasional Hallucinations
Occasionally (especially when I've been looking at my computer long enough) I get faint hallucinations of Lain. Typically from the neckline up (although sometimes her shoulders and chest are visible as well) and usually fleeting, but it moreso has me wondering if I've finally managed to accrue some kind of serious psychological (hopefully not neurological) damage. Any idea what's happening?
/RDT/: recent drugs thread
Have you tried any new drugs lately? Last Thursday I took a smaller dose of Xanax, and boy let me tell you it taught me something. I didn't realize how anxious I was until I took some.
Psychological warefare
So back in the hayday of 8chan there was this board called /32/ that was devoted to the research of psychopolitics and psychological warfare. One thing the board was always lacking in is research into its technique and application. Is there anyone else here that has thought about this beyond just identifying it? How hard would it be to subvert people?
Cigars
Hey lains. Any cigar smokers here?
Giraffes
What do they symbolize? How are they used in pictures or movies? Do they invoke a certain kind of feeling in you? Tell me whatever you've picked up about them in terms of metaphorical usage. I've stumbled across depictions of them in some places (wired & tube) and it appeared to me kind of weird, so I hope that you could give me at least a vague idea what they're about. To make it clear: This isn't about the creature itself, this thread is about how the giraffe is used as a symbol, maybe to trigger certain emotions.
confusion
Right as I fall asleep, something odd happens. Just before i succumb to the depths of sleep, my brain sort of sends a shock to my entire body, sort of refusing to fall asleep.
Split
Any of you guys ever feel like your mind is split? Not into like two personalities or choices,but as if you think differently at such times as if you have different knowledge.
dermatophagia/dermatillomania
I have struggled with this my whole life more or less. I did not know that others did this or that it had a name until very recently. I confided that I was suffering from this to a friend online and they said that they knew a few other women that had the same issue. Has anyone else struggled with this? It is getting really severe and I am too ashamed to talk about it to anyone in real life, but it is making it very painful to type on the computer so I know I really need help.
Somniphobia (fear of sleep)
Where to even begin? I feel weirdly alone in my trauma. Since my whole mess of PTSD started I have even more trouble sleeping than I did before. That's coming from a chronic insomniac. Sometimes, I am so afraid of sleeping. So I stay awake worried I will either have a nightmare where I have to relive some demented version of my past memories in dreams. I hope I'm not alone in this or someone has something even a little similar.
Bad Trips
I'm not sure if you have this problem Alice, but lately My Waifu has been having so real bad fucking trips. Last week she had just gotten back from her job. Her boss had been fucking hammering her to meet a unrealistic deadline and she need to calm down. She took some Alprazolam and once she got past that initial soykaf taste she sat down in my living room and ordered some takeout. Everything was chill until she began to feel it. She couldn't seem to remember anything and had an extreme tightness in her chest. She was worried because she had taken quite a bit more then normal (*8mg compared to her normal 4) so she decided to talk to her girlfriend. (Open relationship I swear) She was texting her about how nervous she was getting and then she heard banging on her front door. She had already forgotten she'd ordered take out so in her panic she hid in her bathroom. She was cooped up in there all night. She'd left her phone downstairs and was too freaked out to go down and check. This has happened to her a couple times in the last couple weeks and wanted to ask Arisuchan for any advice on how to prevent it. So any advice for her Alice?
In your own personal reality, you basically can be anything
So I believe that there’s two realities at best, one is the true reality which no one is able to comprehend. And the other being our personal reality, and this can contort however we want it, either consciously and subconsciously, ex like being in denial or delusions. But we can’t twist facts obviously so we have to be in denial or live in a bubble to twist and turn our personal reality, so we can basically be what we want.
Daydreams
How often do you daydream and what do you daydream about? I daydream on a constant basis when I'm in class and i usual daydream about kung fu fighting people, or flying or being a protagonist in a story. It's fun to get lost in your own thoughts.
Christian Cyberpunk Chat?
This is a long shot but I figured this would be a good place to ask. Does anyone remember an IRC community about cyberpunk Christianity? The room name was like cyberchristian or cyberchrist and I believe it was either on freenode or rizon. If anyone out there can point me in the direction of these people please let me know. I miss their excellent commentary.
Sleep deprivation
How long have you gone without sleep? Mine was only 24 hours and it wasn't that bad. I just felt really energetic before passing out. When are you supposed to start hallucinating and is it worth it?
being someone else in dreams
I've read that others here sometimes experience dreams in the third person so I know I'm not alone in that, but with this I'm not so sure: on occasion I will be someone else in my dreams. Sometimes I will just be a generic person of different ages, genders, and races, but other times I find myself in the mind/body of a known public figure. For example I was once dreaming as President George W. Bush, a very humanizing and interesting experience considering I am a liberal female in real life. I'm sure there are others I have been as well, but none immediately come to mind. I wonder if anyone else experiences this anomaly.
Dream Death
I've died quite a lot in my dreams. Sometimes I die, my consciousness and physical feeling fading away with me, and other times I just see my body lying someplace.
what if we are in a simulation?
Even the bank of America thinks that there is a good chance we are living in a simulation so my question to lain is. What do you think well be the consequences if we find out that we really are in a simulation?
i saw god... i think
pic related is what i saw
Do you dream in 1st or 3rd person?
I dream in both and sometimes it changes, I had a dream where it was in 3rd person and i was seeing a bat getting shot at by wizards and then it landed on a building that was on fire. The bat transformed into an edgy anime character and i suddenly switched to first person as that character. Describe how you dream and tell your stories
dreams
my fav dream was when i turned into a hawk and flew over the ocean most trippy experiance :) all 1st person
Taste in dreams
Last night I had a dream that ate tainted food and it caused me to be sick. The taste of the food I was eating was so tangy like vinegar and had an awful texture. The sick clogged my throat and tasted just like sick. These feelings continued after I awoke.
Smokeless Tobacco General
Do you dip, Alice? Use smokeless tobacco? Got a lip full of dip while reading this? Got an ex who dipped, and now you're disgusted by the practice? (Hey, me too, for a little while!) Tried it once in high school, got really sick, and never did it again? (Hint: You're supposed to spit!) Got a favorite brand/blend you want to share? Whatever your experiences with dipping tobacco are, or just smokeless tobacco in general, this is the thread to share them.
What's the most schway nootropic stack?
Old/new mixes, best chems?
addiction general
when do you guys start thinking addiction is a problem? for me it's when i get the urge to use more than once a week. I tend to be more lenient when I know the addiction isn't going to fuck me over e.g. cigarettes, but I'm super paranoid about getting addicted to coke or opiates.
Information addiction
When I go for more than about half an hour without significant and productive mental effort or non-mundane information intake my emotions start fluctuating and I crave mental stimulation. As I learn more and more its increasingly difficult to find information that I can get rapidly enough to satisfy this. I have tried getting my fix through focusing my thought on high speed maths and logic problems, but this is like the synthetic knock off sold in Chinese back alley off licenses that has been watered down to squeeze more money out of the sorry fucks who can't get their hands on the real thing.
epistemology/metaphysics general
discuss reality, truth, existence, knowledge, perception. I'll start:
Psychiatric Medication
Does lain have mental illness? Does lain take psychiatric medication for it? I take bupropion 300mg (antidepressant), lamotrigine 300mg (anticonvulsant [for mood stabilization]), and quetiapine 50mg (antipsychotic) as off-label treatment for borderline personality disorder. I've tried many different combinations of medication over the years, but I've never been as stable as I am now. Medication may not be the only answer, but if you are still suffering, please don't give up. There may be something that helps.
Reality Checks
Does Alice perform reality checks? I used to check by flipping light switches and turning on faucets (they never work in my dreams), but had to stop because it was causing severe problems in my life. I would discover I was dreaming way, way more often than I expected and would sometimes become trapped in lucid, but uncontrollable dreams. For example I once found myself in the bathroom, but couldn't leave because the doorknob wouldn't work and I couldn't wake up either. So I just sat on the floor, cried, and waited for what seemed like hours to wake up. Also I'm not sure if this was related to reality checking, but I was having so many false awakenings at the time that I would just cease getting out of bed even in reality. At this point I stopped having any interest in lucid dreaming whatsoever and wanted to return to having normal dreams. Sometimes I'm still kind of scared of flipping light switches or turning on faucets.
Dreams and Reality
Right now I am awake. To me it feels like "This right here is real. My dreams are not real.". When I'm dreaming, it feels to me to be the complete opposite. It is obvious that whichever state I'm in biases how I think about both states, and in addition, I have no solid and reliable empirical data or logical assumption or argument to confirm one way or the other.
Stream of Consciousness
I enjoyed reading these threads on .org so why not contribute to .jp
Lucid dreams
Post stories about lucid dreaming, last time i lucid dream't i dream t i was in high school and one of my friends told me that i was dreaming and i told him cool, Then i kung fu fought people
Dream Memories Affecting Reality
Spending a large amount of time in alternate realities(chans, chatrooms, media, etc.), or in your head, means that contact time in the open world is quite small.
Marijuana
Lains, let's discuss the wonderful drug that is marijuana.
Computer Addiction
When one has mental illness it is sometimes difficult to have insight into your own disordered mind and behavior, but I still occasionally have a fleeting moment where I wonder to myself how I must look to an outside observer. I literally spend almost every waking moment of my life in front of the computer. My three monitors cover so much of my visual field that—combined with my headphones and blackout curtains—my subjective experience is almost completely artificial now. I think that this environment is at least somewhat responsible for my struggles with depersonalization and derealization. It's easy to feel that you and your world aren't real when everything you experience is already virtual. Despite these problems I cannot get off of the computer even to migrate to a different screen like a phone or television let alone do something not involving electronics or further still actually go outside. I know this needs to change, but I don't know how. Please help.
precognitive dreams
lain, i need some help. I want to know if anyone has had anything like this happen to them.
Information as Drug.
Can you get addicted to information?
Jenkem
Anybody here have any experience using/making Jenkem? I love the hallucinogenic effects – both the visuals and, sometimes, the auditory – and the convenience in not having to actually digest anything (instead just being able to inhale the fumes to get high). Plus the tools needed to make it are super easy to use and available to mostly everyone.
-- Reality --
Do you sometimes have a dream so real, that you start to question your own reality. How do i know if i'm in a dream or not? I swear sometimes i get that feeling. Maybe i should find out the easy way.
how do -you- dream?
I used to think that dreams are a mostly uniform experience; but during the mediocre time I spend lurking dream-related forums and boards, I've found that people seem focused on different aspects. Some of them mostly remember a story or narrative, while for others it's just successive experiences loosely connected by an object or two. I rarely feel touch, taste or smell, it's usually just a sense of being there and visuals - perhaps in sync with my daily life. There is also a 'dogma' in most dreams that I never question; it usually tells me the identity of certain people and events that I wouldn't recognize, almost like a script for a movie. Coherence optional.
Consciousness in dreams
We encounter other people (projections) in our dreams almost every night, but never for even a moment do we stop to consider if they were actually conscious. We immediately dismiss everything we experienced as being "just a dream," but what is to say that you couldn't just as easily wake up from the dream in which you're reading this equally ready to dismiss the consciousness of everyone you've ever known or loved here? Please bear in mind I am not a solipsist (at least I'm not trying to be), but I've never understood how the divergence of attitudes towards others' consciousness is completely consistent either.
trouble waking up
I'm having a lot of trouble remembering my dreams lately. I keep a dream journal, but I haven't been able to update it because when I'm asleep, it's like everything is more important than waking up. This has caused severe difficulty in all my affairs, from going to class, working, and going to therapy. Anyone else have this problem?