I'm so sorry you had such a negative experience.I think a big problem, though, is that you took 4 grams with no prior experience. >=5 grams is considered a "heroic dose". What you took is way beyond what most people would (or should) do. The most I've done is 3.5 and I'm not sure I'd do that again. >>42
I've microdosed shrooms with great success. I find it to be stimulating, like a good cup of coffee without the jitters. I've taken as much as .5 grams (to microdose) and found that to be quite psychedelic. ~.25g is probably my sweet spot. A lot of people might find even that to be too high, but I like things to get a little weird when I microdose.
Some people have mentioned trying out RCs, and I've done that many many times.
It's easy to get the exact dosage you're taking. Easy to tweak things up and find your sweet spot.
Also, convenience. It's very to get RCs in most places (USA).
I've microdosed using 1p-lsd and 4-aco-dmt.
1p-LSD gave me a lot of headaches.
4-aco-DMT made me very euphoric and happy, but it also was prone to giving me headaches (though, not as much or as bad as 1p-LSD).
And this is a personal reason, but I find organic to be more "natural feeling" (as fucking cliche as that is to say). Fewer headaches, and doesn't make me feel "burnt out" as RCs do.
As far as how effective any of this has been for medicinal purposes, it's hard for me to say. I still suffer from depression. I still get mad over little things. I'm not cured. I'm not smarter or creative than I was before any of this.
But it does give an interesting edge to my days now. I've had days that I feel like were definitely enhanced by microdosing.
But I'm still me.