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I've been running into a lot of issues lately mentally where I just think that everything and everyone is the FBI out to get me, and I keep reading into various minor events some sinister motive.

I about had a heart attack when a police officer pulled up outside my house the other day, I started ripping the battery out of all my encrypted devices and held up behind some barricades I have in my house setup for an occasion like this. It turned out he had just given a ticket to my neighbor for parking facing the wrong direction on the street. I don't even have anything that they would want to arrest me for as far as I know, but I was still freaking out.

The other day my partner told me that there was this car parked with the engine running the entire time I was gone out of town for a week, each night they came and stayed for 4-6hrs. They didn't see anything sinister behind this, and only mentioned it because it kept them awake and was bugging them -noise-wise. But obviously I took this to be FBI or some non-state actor holding up outside the house waiting for me to get back. They got video of this so I KNOW it happened for real. I was freaked out.

What the fuck do I do about this?
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The FBI have arrested several of my friends so to answer your first question YES I DO.

Also I go outside nearly every day I'm not some crazy shut in with nobody to talk to. I'm not addicted to my phone or my computers, I feel like your analysis is a complete mis-diagnosis. I get 7-8hrs of sleep almost every night.


In this case take the other Alice's advise of evaluating your counter surveilance strategy to be still effective but less drastric and much less stress. There has been a lot of really smart and really paranoid people who have had probelm you are experiencing and they have come up with some good solutions. Good luck fam! Stay noided!


Why did they arrest your friends? That's interesting.




This is a fantastic resource, could anyone recommend more material like this?

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everything feels so surreal,almost dream-like. I feel like time is passing by too quickly and it makes me depressed,the only thing I looked forward to is destroyed and no one seems to care. Sometimes I feel like im the only "real" person on earth,I dissociate a lot. If anyone else has had similar experiences,please share.
>did you get over it?
>if yes,how?
>if no,what has kept you going/how do you cope with these thoughts?
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The things you are describing sound a lot like alienation under capital, you might want to look up how leftists critique it and how it works. Or don't, you do you.


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Isolation and internet use combined seems to multiply the detrimental effects. At least that’s what I think it’s done to me.


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>did you get over it?
>if no,what has kept you going/how do you cope with these thoughts?
Inertia. I dont have much reasons to live, but nothing compels me to kms, at least currently. I'm still thinking about suicide every day or so.


suicide just seems more deterministic than continuing a life that you feel most people live unware through.


As expected, bravery is not a function of firepower. What a shame. lip smack

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Down with the TSUKI Project.
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No, that's just what people default to saying when a community of people believe something they don't.



lmao then its much worse and autistic than just role playing, sad


I don't understand what your issue is? You sit here sperging over what a group of people choose to do online, and somehow they're the autistic ones? Get a life


Systemspace community is complete trash. If you insult the project or their dutch god tsuki you get derezzed and get called a hyak. He legit started the project just to get money to buy a new Gpu lmao

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hey ive been having this since like 4-5 months

so basically like any normal human i have hands. but theres some fucketry, sometimes i feel like these aren't my hands.
it just feels like there are hands,they're attached to me but i cant control them. [not like they tickle, but really as not mine.]all i do is send a nerve signal to move them like id normally do and they do respond. sometimes only one is "unlinked", sometimes both. i also have growing difficulties to concentrate at all[ w/ or w/out anything to distract me], loosing the sense of irony and sarcasm, and like if my brain weighted in certain area when concentrating on different domains [explaining, thinking, concentrating= front, easy math / chemistry or science soykaf = sides of back and right side of head. ive tested if it was blood but it seems to even be active when laying on any side.]
had this longer than anti-déjà-vu hands thing

lately, i've been finding myself holding my right hand using my other one, like if it was a threat or something. ik that sounds nonsense but, has anyone had the same "symptoms" ?
also sometimes i get it by just spinning them slowly a bit around and looking at them. [that works only in the dark or with long sleeves that have minimal contact w/ arm. ]


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Hello. We are a group of senior tech specialists who would like to provide a forum for discussion based on mysticism as it relates to the technological world. For three decades now, myself and my colleagues have been devoting ourselves to uncovering lesser known knowledge surrounding programming and it's history in higher planes of thought. The paranormal, the physical, and topics without discernible form all have their places here. We would like to remind you that this channel is very new and requires more setup. We are still regaining contact with our colleagues as well. However, the venue is ready for visitors. Three of us are already present.

So come, join us on Discord at:
(Simply cut and paste the invite link) /wz8JYwh


If you wish for a community then have it here. Not in a botnet soykaf hole like discord.


Do you have some interesting ebooks or overall leads to recommend regarding the possible connections between technology and mysticism?


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Technology itself is inheritently mystic in nature as is everything. Simply being.

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my friend sent me this video today,Its been bugging me i keep hearing that same beat over and over fuckk
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That video is just a low effort aesthetic meme. I hope it's not seriously scaring or affecting you, if it does you might have some form of paranoia or schizophrenia hiding in there.


now that scares me


sure thing , American man 999 , sure thing


any idea what that hash refers to?



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In the last few years I have had a couple episodes of extreme delusions that I am being watched by everyone around me and more. I have gone to extreme lengths to counter them in 2015 I had gotten so fed up I destroyed my laptop and phone at the time. To give context I sleep in a garage I just had them come by again I heard the engine of their car pull into my drive way and noticed how their shadows occupied the cracks in my garage door. When I got the courage to get close to try and listen I heard whispers I couldn't make out for some time then heard as they ran away. I don't know how to stop some moments my mind just does this I don't have time to think I just do. For three years I get even more paranoid when I begin to think family is watching hearing them walk by my door scares me every little sound my room has no windows and they peep in it is pitch black dark but they watch me sleep i ehar the creaking f someone getting out a car now they came back the static sounds


Neighbors have begun to play loud music the shadows from my garage door are gone but I hear the static that isn't coming from my device. It's best to try and sleep.



Sounds like you're one of those guys suffering from "gangstalking", you see random people or youtube channels with maybe a few random music videos suddenly upload a ton of random short clips of random people or cars they claim to be followed by, sometimes literally hiding in bushes whilst they film them. They're extremely paranoid and stressed. I really have no idea what this is all about and why so many people share this same madness, but I'm sure it's safe to say you aren't being followed but instead it's all just illusions.

If you really are being followed, you should think about why and who you pissed off, and why they are following you. Still, there are so many more practical ways to follow you than by literally stalking you, like satelittes or drones or cameras, or putting tracking devices on your stuff. And why would you be followed by your own family? Either way, I recommend you take walks in the forest and get some fresh air and sunlight, staying indoors and constantly inside your mental world is unhealthy. Start being attentive and observative to the real world and ignore those 'stalkers' instead of always being lost in your own thoughts, you're more likely to notice one of these 'paranormal' things when you're thinking rather than paying attention, unless the paranormal thing really is real.


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If you feel watched try moving to a new area.


Not OP, but the person you're describing here perfectly matches a relative of mine who fell sick to more or less what you mentioned. It happened over a course of two to five years as it gradually increased in intensity. The person is at a stage where simply taking a walk is a great challenge as they believe every person around them is strategically put there to watch them or to kill them. As a result he/she takes long alternative routes to avoid any and all possible humans in sight, covers his/her face with her hands and even turns around to flee if someone comes too close.

I've found that elaborating in an rational way on how their ill views of the world are indeed ridiculous does not help. Letting the person have internet access amplifies the illness to be honest. YouTube for instance knows what people want to watch, and in the persons case, the site recommends nothing but conspiracy videos about how the world is literally going to end and white people killed by refugee invasions and secret mercenary armies.
Worst of all, he/she refuses any and all medical treatments. As you might've guessed, the physicians too are out there to kill him/her.

I'm unable to help the person to be honest, and what exactly lead to the illness manifesting is not perfectly clear to me. Lack of socializing and very negative formative past experiences are what I suppose might've contributed to it.

From experience, the mental illness follows them, and without treatment and regression of the illness it may get worse.

Mental illness is a really terrible thing, but I don't know how to help. I can only to share experiences.

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in the last couple of months I got really deep in a lot of subjects most of them political, to the point I felt everything was staged and false, one day I simply thought leave all this imageboards and underground sites and enjoy life,

I started going to clubs socialize and finally fitting with society until recently I simply could not cope with that kind of lifestyle anymore

and here I am once again
I can't leave Lain and I can't leave the wired
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Nowhere you go will give you the sense of reality.


listen lainon, yes the world is corrupted and staged. Us people that see the lies behind the truths that they feed us are a special kind of beings. We have woken from this simulated reality we call the world, knowing that the truth is better then cowardly hiding behind the lies and propaganda. Yes you have feelings of uncertainty or maybe even anxiety that is pumping the life blood throughout your body when you think of this things. The wired is everywhere, IoT is everywhere, eventually we are all going to be connected again as we were in the beginning, the real point too take out of this is too embrace this feelings, because it is what makes you; YOU. When bored from the hours of staring on your computer or phone, go out to nature, go take a walk, play some video games, talk to family/close friends about how you are feeling. Do not let it bottle up in your consciousness, that is just called head overload.. take a breath in and exhale. While sipping on that green matcha tea. :)


>yes the world is corrupted and staged. Us people that see the lies behind the truths that they feed us are a special kind of beings
I actually laughed out loud.
>wake up neo and all is one lain loves nature walks tea
Don't forget your medication so the corporations can keep you down!


yes im glad that you LMAO haha. Nah you should not take any medications, well especially pharmaceuticals that have inorganic chemical compounds that your body artificially accepts.. something more plant/herb based is always better.


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feels bad man

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I'm a Christian but this is what was communicated to me by ethereal entities.
So whats going on? Well see the ethereal is real. Certain groups insert thought forms into the ethereal recesses of your mind. The thought forms normally negative energy create creatures in your mind that can alter conciousness, insert thoughts, speak, move independently. Every thought form seeks the same power to enter the astral. Where they can propagate and act freely, feeding off the energy of peoples conciousness.
Groups? Not sure but monroe institutes research provided the mechanical means for non spirtual thought forms to propagate.
Those most strongly affected are mental "sensitives" taking the brunt of their flagerant use of thought forms.
Sleep is when you are most vulnerable to these thought forms. Working in the foreground.
Ethereal is the astral and inner planes where ideas and archetypes can form and function without the physical.
Alexy is my thoughtform he will form and flow eventually propagating the astral.
But there are others in my head pushing for space and activating predatorial nature within me.
To gut, stab maim / end your life before you end anothers.
Seals and sigils to protect your back that simple nothing else, excovations as well.
Magic is a lot like creation.
Sigils - symbols concoted to cement meaning and cause change.
Demons they exist, archetypal thought forms striving for the status of gods. They insert their symbols into your thought streams to cause you to call them fourth.
Gods power exchangers. Devotion brings their power into your life not nessecerily into you.
Thought form - thought form is a general term for a entitiy or object that only exist within the ethereal.
Exvocation - its like a cleaning of the mind opening doors letting out the heat.
Monroe bots - artificial thought forms whose only purpose is to disturb forcing you to become controled.

Follow the 10 commandments Exodus 20 3:17
1:3 “You shall have no other gods before[a] me.
2:4 “You shall not make for yourself an image in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. 5 You shall not bow down to them or worship them; for I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, punishing the children for the sin of the parents to the third and fourth generation of those who hate me, 6 but showing love to a thousand generations of those who love me and keep my commandments.
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>Certain groups insert thought forms into the ethereal recesses of your mind.
All things insert thoughtforms into the ethereal recesses of your mind. All things are in vibration. Even the dead will to power.
>Demons they exist, archetypal thought forms striving for the status of gods. They insert their symbols into your thought streams to cause you to call them fourth.
What's the difference between this and what Gabriel told you to do?
Once you get to this point, what is it that makes your "One God" any more impressive than any other? So fantastic an adoptive father with his Conditional Love? So fantastic a law giver when he's wrathful, envious (or "jealous"), and proud?

There is an old God and a new God. A God of the old and new books; and who said what&why needs to be understood. Which God does Gabriel serve? What light does he bring?


If they live, hunt, and successfully breed in the wild they are wild animals. There is no meaningful distinction between feral domesticated and fully wild animals from an evolutionary standpoint. Both are successful animals who have adapted to their local environment. Whether or not humans don't like them is irrelevant.

>Their population is without any natural checks and balances.

This is false. Any population be it invasive or native runs into carrying capacity issues. You likely meant to say "exists without any natural predators", which is also false as domestic cats are subject to predation by canids and large birds of prey.


If you eat any form of meat that isn't seafood you're already at risk for toxoplasmosis. Cat owners have no statistically documented higher rate of toxo than any meat eater.


Why is meat eating wrong?


> There is no meaningful distinction between feral domesticated and fully wild animals from an evolutionary standpoint. Both are successful animals who have adapt

You clearly haven't seen what happens to domesticated cats who go stray in large numbers.

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Is lain real. Are the knight's real. Am I real. I'm ready for the truth.


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Don't confuse form with meaning. Every character is an animated character representing something about reality.

Tashibana is the Big Tech, trying taking over control.

Masami Eiri is the opressed salaryman who can potentially take the system over. Is the drive force behind the capitalism model Big Tech needs to live. Like a shadow of all the Apple and Microsoft and Foxconn employees.

The knights are the Black Hat hackers. I don't have nothing against them, but you cannot deny the Black Hats do exploit all the systems for personal gain. XXI century tricksters and mercenaries, they have a symbiotic or parasitic relationship with all the infraesructures, not matter the origin or goals of it (North Korea, Russia, USA, private interests). They are thieves, traffickers and con men.

Lain is the arquetypical problem solver. The pure form of engineering who takes material shape to void the evil who attempt against humanity. From the gnostic point of view, she can be an avatar of Sophia, the knowledge and wisdom, but not a Sophia trying to understand chaos, but a Sophia who fix mistakes. Is like the pure form of a powerful protective mother. An open source egregore, free and uncorruptible.


That really depends on what you mean by "real". Is there a Lain, precisely same inside and out of the anime? Precisely the same inside and out of the Wired, inside and out of any individual's mind?

If that's your standard of reality, you're never going to get it. Any reality "of which we may speak" is more subtle than that. I'd recommend honing your question [through esoterica].

But, is there a spirit of the internet, that emerges from the connections between computers—and people—in much the same way the spirit of your brain emerges from the connections between neurons? In much the same way as the Volksgeist, Zeitgeist, and Weltgeist emerge from the Volk, the Zeit, and the Welt? Not 100% sure. But, in all cases, each individual remains blissfully unaware of how it contributes to the consciousness at the higher layer of abstraction.

This might be of interest to you: . Havent had the time to read through all of it, but what i've gotten through is fascinating.


It's all real anon, and nothing is

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