/feels/ - personal experiences

>I don't want to be an adult but I don't want to be a manchild.
well what the fuck do you want then?

I'll be honest you're pissing me off by hinting that traditional adulthood is anything more than a scam. Describe what you want with your life, can't help you with what you're giving here.

Just become an adult who has enough free time to indulge in your childlike habits.

>>786

Be more specific why do you consider yourself as a manchild?

>I don't want to be an adult but I don't want to be a manchild
> they don't want to get past the edgy/videogames phase even though the 30s and wageslave life are coming fast
Sounds like you are putting a lot of weight on societal perception and adhesion to accepted groupings. If you keep trying to become the steryotype for your demographic then you will spend your life working towards things you dont want.

OP here. It's just an occasional burst of anxiety and nostalgia that keeps going back and I know it's just a phase.

>>787
>hinting that traditional adulthood is anything more than a scam
It's a scam.

I realize I'm slowly starting to change and what I used to find "awesome" back then now feels a bit boring. I (deeply) don't feel like I'm concerned anymore by this stuff and this is a change that terrifies me.
I don't feel ready for a demanding life of adulthood and I don't want to become unimaginative and boring like my family reclaimed me to be.
Still, I don't want to close myself in a bubble of anime and wake up at 40 in an even worse shape. This is what I meant by manchild.
This is kinda ironic because I never went past a "teenage confusion phase".

>>790
>Sounds like you are putting a lot of weight on societal perception and adhesion to accepted groupings
Probably. I also got a bit paranoid after failing college a first time, working really hard to get a crappy wage with slacker superiors whining about my productivity numbers, and seeing people abandoning their projects because the part-time job they found became full-time and now they have to make a living because they had a falling out with their family.
I just want to feel like my life has been useful to someone.

But I didn't want to make this thread about me. I hoped to see if some people here experienced that phase and successfully shut it down, or even if they didn't and how they kept their freedom as adults. It would be inspiring.

I'm in a similar situation my two options are :

1) go to grad school at the old ass age of 27 therefore continuing my trajectory of never growing up. I'm a gay otaku so things like family and kids don't mean soykaf to me.

2)go back to office life and pick up a nice senior/manager position in a tech or finance company. I'll hate my life myself and coworkers but I'll have $$$ to buy all the gucci at the end of the day.

At the moment I'm banking hard on 1. I just hope I can get to a slightly less disowned state with my family and get on their dole for the remainder of my education. I feel like a lot of the pressure in 'growing' up is related to getting married/starting a nuclear family; being a kid feels pretty reasonable for anyone who eschews that for other (probably lonelier) alternatives.

>>791
> failing college

my best friend (literal genius) has failed it twice and is now finally doing it right on his third try. Some people move at different paces, and priorities aren't always where they should be when they need to. Don't be hard on yourself but if it's important to you, it's a reasonable goal and you should finish, otherwise fuck it it has no bearing on your intelligence future or (most of) your goals (no professor life 4 u).

*i hope im as aesthetic teaching quantum to the billion chinese here -_-

>>791

To me, it's look like you didn't had anything happen to you that helped you grow. What i mean is you didn't had any "Triggers" events that made you grow as a person.

First, stop seeking people attention. It's a toxic behavior for you and others. Secondly, fix your soykaf by clearing your life, what do you want, what do you seek etc. These kind of question are often self introspection that you need to do and do it honestly.

I'm the complete opposite of you, being a kid/teenager was the fucking worst.

>>791
>I realize I'm slowly starting to change and what I used to find "awesome" back then now feels a bit boring. I (deeply) don't feel like I'm concerned anymore by this stuff and this is a change that terrifies me.
Now you're making sense. Still you should identify your circle of concern and interest then, if anime and video games aren't it anymore, you'll find something else if you look. No point doing things you don't enjoy, now is there? Expand your horizons, maybe that's your solution. Here's a webm semi-related.

>>792
>that pic
that's japanese dumb fucks

So,
>don't want to be unsuccessful
>don't want to be conventionally successful "wageslave"
>don't have the initiative and/or tenacity (and/or, possibly, 'opportunities') for Life As Choose-Your-Own-Adventure to achieve nonconventional success

Really I mean ya gotta consider your options
Every day that goes by without moving towards SOMETHING positive, your body and mind are rotting and the first option is overtaking you all on its own

"Not to choose" is to choose—the default (which can only be the remotest approximation of success under limited circumstances such as rich parents who won't let you fail, exceptional talent and social skills or ingrained/habitual work ethic)