OP here. It's just an occasional burst of anxiety and nostalgia that keeps going back and I know it's just a phase.>>787>hinting that traditional adulthood is anything more than a scam
It's a scam.
I realize I'm slowly starting to change and what I used to find "awesome" back then now feels a bit boring. I (deeply) don't feel like I'm concerned anymore by this stuff and this is a change that terrifies me.
I don't feel ready for a demanding life of adulthood and I don't want to become unimaginative and boring like my family reclaimed me to be.
Still, I don't want to close myself in a bubble of anime and wake up at 40 in an even worse shape. This is what I meant by manchild.
This is kinda ironic because I never went past a "teenage confusion phase".>>790>Sounds like you are putting a lot of weight on societal perception and adhesion to accepted groupings
Probably. I also got a bit paranoid after failing college a first time, working really hard to get a crappy wage with slacker superiors whining about my productivity numbers, and seeing people abandoning their projects because the part-time job they found became full-time and now they have to make a living because they had a falling out with their family.
I just want to feel like my life has been useful to someone.
But I didn't want to make this thread about me. I hoped to see if some people here experienced that phase and successfully shut it down, or even if they didn't and how they kept their freedom as adults. It would be inspiring.