>>723>We're all vile pieces of human garbage but garbage doesn't have the right to throw itself out.>if you don't have the gall to do it in front of them, what makes you think you have the right to do it?In my opinion, everyone has the right to end their own life. From any philosophical standpoint it's an unalienable right, but not considered something that adheres to duty or morality. In other words, the status of your existence is beyond normal consideration of ethics - so don't try to apply those precepts. The only thing that matters once you're in a place like this is solving that ontological argument so that you can proceed to a higher level of being.
And as to the second point - what are you trying to say?
OP. I hope that you're still with us, and I hope you can see another way out. I've been so depressed at times that I don't see any option but suicide - and an unfathomable number of random events in my life could have pushed me over that delicate line - but I'm still here and I am glad that I've never successfully gone over that line.
Only you are experiencing this, and nobody else can shoulder the burden. It's up to you what to do with it, but if you drop that weight everything's over. Few things are truly worse than nothing at all, even being completely alone.
We're always here to listen, let me know if you want to talk on Discord or something else