Today is my birthday Alice.
I knew it would be hard to spend it for the first time after i parted ways with my first and only friend. I lost 70% of my acquaintances since i was connected to them through her. So for the last month i've tried to become friends with the remaining %30, but i think most of my efforts will not return anything. That's ok. I know it's situational and related with people already forming their circles. It's not about me, and I believe there is nothing wrong with me.
I don't think there is anything wrong with spending important days alone, new year or birthday or whatever, it just multiplies the lonely feeling by 1.2 . Before I had an almost real experience what I can call friendship, I was oblivious to the need of socializing with people, so it didn't affect me in my previous experiences of this kind.
It still is mostly pleasant. I have a lot of things to appreciate in my life. My economic situation is good. People at work are nice. So there is nothing wrong with celebrating.
I kill my free time in front of the computer playing lame online games. I don't have the energy to invest in an enjoyable personal project because the thing I consume unfortunately doesn't replace my social needs and refresh me. It is still acceptable, I'm functional at work and managed to go to the gym 3 times this week.
Maybe today I'll do something different. I woke up early and watched Rick and Morty eating two packs of my favourite biscuit with some milk. I took a shower and wore fancy clothes even though I don't have any plans outside. Then I called some of the 30% ( it may have been socially inappropiate for some but fuck them its my birthday) to hang out but I don't expect them to respond. At least I'll enjoy my comfy clothing and may continue playing that lame game just because I crave it, even though I wanted to do something different. If I get bored, i'll quit, i'll manage to find something else, or get tired of my search of finding something different and go back to it. If I want to eat, I'll eat, and if I want to cry, I'll cry. My pride can shut the fuck up just for today. I don't care, It's my birthday, and I deserve being happy.
Happy birthday friend.
Good on you for deciding to be enjoy the day no matter what. I wish you an awesome day. Celebrate however you see fit, which I am sure you will definitely do. You are awesome!
Happy Birthday Alice!
I lost all my friends a few years ago, the only friends I now have are online. You aren't alone, you have all of us :)
Happy Birthday! :p
Happy birthday. Enjoy however you like, sometimes it's better not to have a whole group of people over singing to you while everyone awkwardly pretends this is something that should happen. You've got the chance to do whatever you want for once.
I'll have a beer in celebration. Or a vodka.
Happy birthday alice!
I understand what its like to lose friends and acquaintances. you don't need others to have a good time, learning how to and getting comfortable with being alone is much more fulfilling.
Happy birthday Alice. I hope it was a nice comfy day for you.
Hey, it's my friend's birthday today too!
If your initials are TT, then hey dude!
Otherwise, happy birthday Alice!
If it's any consolation Alice I had a soykafty birthday too. BF of 10 years treated me like trash when I used my birthday money to buy him something he wanted a few days later. Everything is falling apart and I am being blamed for it all.