No.2526
You aren't the only one, maybe we all want something to blame and justify the way we are.
No.2528
I've had many depressive episodes in my life. I'm not proud of them, but I can tell you that no pill in the world can "fix" you. It's something you need to figure out for yourself and find ways to beat. Don't be afraid to talk to people about it, not necessarily professional help but even any close friends or relatives. I didn't want to talk to anyone about it the first time but an online friend helped me at the started and it was just the lift I needed to them change my own attitude towards life. Never give up!