boo hoo grow a pair
boo hoo kill yourself
What stops you from drawing? Especially for practice you should not limit yourself to a single style or medium. I don't know your condition but even Stephen Hawking could have done ansi art. Drawing an ansi loli really isn't different from drawing a loli with a pencil. Sure it's a different medium but things like Imagination, Composition, Colors.. are exactly the same no matter what kind of art you do, and also the "hard" things to learn. I actually think you can keep learning these things for your whole life (and I draw for nearly 20 years). Everything else is just technique that can be picked up rather quickly.
Its ok OP like the other poster said you can try different ways of expressing yourself through art. There is no single way of doing it. Also I hope your condition gets better.
Meant to say that here >>2413
but clicked reply accidentally