No.165
friendly neighborhood Stirner dropping by to tell you this:
You can get professional help, but only if you feel that your condition is affecting your life in a negative way. If you find yourself becoming comfortable with the way you are, don't try to fight it.
No.175
You can change who you are. Put effort and thought into decisions that might affect your image. Perception is reality, you are who you seem to be to an extent.
No.179
Sounds like your emotions are impulsive, and you lack control over them. You could either ignore the hate and keep up with the kindness you started when you felt like it, or resist the urge to be nice and kind and just be selfish and cold all the time. You could also go for a stable, unchanging balance of not as kind as you feel like, but then not as selfish as you feel like.
Controlling emotions doesn't mean you magically make yourself feel something else; it means being independent of them and basing your choice of actions not on your feelings, but your plans or principles. If that is not viable to you for -any- reason, it means you lack self control; though I'm not saying you're ought to attain it, you can remain what you are now.
