No.1531
For the longest time, I've been almost completely unwilling to do anything but lay around and feel either empty or sad all day. Nothing is fun, and though I still occasionally work on things because I feel like I have a moral obligation to, in truth I just wish someone would kill me in my sleep so I wouldn't have to deal with being alive anymore. Work just seems like an inherently bad thing to me, regardless of what I'm doing, and death is a preferable alternative to doing just about anything. But the weird thing is, there really isn't a good reason for me to feel this way; I have friends who care about me, I'm doing well in school, and I have all the free time I need to do whatever hobbies I want. So why in the world have I been feeling so depressed for the past several months, when in theory I have everything I could reasonably want? Have you ever felt this way? How did you manage to get out of it? Thanks in advance, Alice.
No.1532
I've been feeling the same way the past months. I don't know what causes it, I just try to fight it by being productive, I force myself do atleast one productive thing a day following some type of schedule.
No.1533
>>1531I understand how you feel as well, I've been going through the same thing for almost 4 years now. However, I'm not in any education and I don't have any friends really. Except for two that I never see in person due to one not having a license like myself and the other living too far away. I'm also extremely disorganized with my life right now and the house has fully become a mess due to me not knowing how to properly organize my belongings. I've also practically become a hikki as I barely leave the house. I literally only go out to visit my grandma which lives a little ways down the street which I get picked up and dropped off. I never walk outside of my yard. And then I do go outside to mow my grass. That's it. My social anxiety and depression has consumed my life in recent years to no ends.
>>1532I have been currently doing this myself, It's somewhat helping but then I start to feel overwhelmed due to the nature of my list. I'm trying to get better and tackle so many things at once. I'm trying to figure out a perfect balance with the list. As I listed above I'm terrible with my organization skills and I'm currently trying to work on that but I know it's going to be a long time and a lot of hard work.
No.1535
Simple, you are bored. I can imagine several reasons for that.
1) You live in a society that detaches you from danger and things that inherently feel bad: pain, hunger, thirst, cold, heat, exhaustion, nausea, drowning, itching, fear, uncertainty. These are all things that motivate you to get out of them; if you receive a good daily dose of these, you will be constantly motivated to get out, you will optimize your day around avoiding these. Since most of these you don't experience, or only encounter them through visualized, symbolically represented, second-hand forms, they cease being a threat, and thus a source of motivation.
>I have friends who care about me, I'm doing well in school, and I have all the free time I need to do whatever hobbies I want.
2) Society allowed you to get flooded with good stuff; your standards are now high, the life you are living has no nothing to be contrasted to. You developed a tolerance to a good daily life like drug addicts do.
3) You hit the middle way too hard. This one is kind of mutually exclusive with 2), but maybe you have been in a mediocre situation for so long that you forgot what colors look like. Your friends don't care that much about you, you don't have that much free time and you're not that successful, it's just that you forgot what things would look like if they were significantly better or worse. Your world is now grey, the predictability and lack of vivid change is a lack of stimulus that is hurting you, but not something that could kick you out from this overly medium middle way.
No.1545
>>1538>that is that there is not that much to do on the Internetthere's so much to do, and there's only getting to be more and more
No.2920
"We are tenants of an existence which is a kind of exile, in a world which is a desert, that we’ve been thrown out into this world with no mission to accomplish, with no place assigned us, and no recognizable filiation — abandoned. That we are at the same time so little and already too much […] Wherever we go we carry within ourselves the desert that we’re the hermits in."
No.2921
>>1538sounds like you mostly just consume content.
try creating and engaging more,
check out:
https://n-o-d-e.net/ No.2922
>>1538>I would be okay with hunting/gathering. I hear they only worked a couple hours a day and then chilled for the rest of the day, but I also like being in nature so it'd be two birds with one stone. Too bad it's impossible thanks to "civilization".I think you have a rosy-eyed view of the hunter gatherer lifestyle, but you can certainly chose to live a simpler, more harmonious lifestyle if you really want.
No.2923
You're describing a general malaise that everyone under the age of 50 is feeling everywhere in the industrialized world. Our lives are relatively easy and comfortable, but unsatisfying because of the attendant aimlessness. My advice is to spend more time with your friends - and make sure you're all unplugged during that time - more time in nature, and more time exercising or doing some kind of physical pursuit. That's what works for me.
